2012 looks like it should be way more futuristic than it actually is, right? So here’s the obligatory New Year’s post.
2011 was the most introspective year I’ve ever experienced. And I’m not sure how I feel about that yet. I’m an extrovert and being this introverted is not my happy place. But doing what makes me uncomfortable is good for me. So yay growth. 2012 is looking like a return to more conversations and experiences. The semester ahead is a busy one, the final one in my MA program. And then it’s all about job hunting.
Grad school has this feeling of incubation. (FYI- don’t look up the definition of the word incubate. It’s literal meaning is kinda gross, the connotation of incubation that I’m alluding to here is much more palatable.) I’ve been withdrawn in a lot of ways and I’m super curious to see what comes out of all this self investment. There is a product at the end of this navel gazing tunnel.
First off, what has to come out is a thesis. Second, a career. In between I’m feeling like more emotional availability. That’s the personal goal for 2012; to be more emotionally available to other people. I’ve sent 2011 being emotionally available to mostly only myself. Not that I’ve neglected anybody, I just haven’t been connecting the same. Too in my head, or poking around in my own heart. What will opening up more to my loved ones look like?
2012 will also have more salt water. 2011 was a dry year for me in that regard too. Not enough time in the ocean. Not too many tears, definitely not enough sweat. Thankfully no blood. Boxing and hot yoga are on the schedule, so is more dancing and hopefully the continued practice of hot n spicy sex. So is travel. New York for Spring Equinox with my cousin, Sedona for Summer Solstice with my Goddesses, Hawaii for the Fall Equinox with Bree. 2011 was a very unbalanced year; 2012 is looking to be a hyper balanced year. Which makes sense, going from prime to multi-factored. There’s so much going on in 2012 that not one facet can claim too much space.
I’m proud of 2011, I’m excited for 2012.
